I guess this is where we say goodbye

You’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow

“Tapi aneh ga sih? The way fate works in life and how they are affecting the person when the time is done”

“I mean, it’s been what? Five years? Six years? Since we ended it and i still don’t have the guts to say your name. The more i think about it, the more it left a bad taste in my mouth— aku masih gabisa ngejawab pertanyaan ayah setiap dia ngebawa nama kamu di obrolan,”

“You’re like the son he never had. Heck, he even said it himself kalo ayah ngerasa kalau dia kehilangan anak cowo kesayangannya.”

“In any case, you know how you left quiet an impression on my mom. Once in a while she would ask me whether you’re doing well with your work or what’s recently happened in your life — knowing im in no position to know a thing about your life, at least, not like how i used to.”

“Dulu aku sempet mikir sih, what if we ended up just like those comics that we read back in high school? Because i don’t think i can bear the pain of being the designer for your wedding invitation, not even back then, not ever.”

“Tapi emang from the start Kayra never meant to be with Arka sih, don’t you think so? ”

How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?

You were mine just yesterday

“ …dan emang nyatanya kehidupan dan masa depan itu sesuatu yang rapuh sih. Looking back now, you’re there in every fragments, in every moment in my life, from the night i was studying for finals to the moment i can finally breathe when i got accepted to my dream uni.”

“And i can see us lost in the moment when we were reliving the scene from the comic that we read. Aku masih nyimpen sih rok putih yang jadi banyak noda karena kita mainan cat hitam. The paint is still there as well as the pain”

“Growing up, all i know is we will be at each other graduation and later in life, we will spend our first paycheck together on food and other useless things that we found at the mall. Growing up, i always knew you’re the person i want to be with in this lifetime.”

Something beautiful died too soon

“But then again, life happened and we just dance away in life with our hands tied. I was barely 20, I don’t know anything but I know I miss you”

— on inner monologues that keep me up at night, i know I’ll be alright